Reaching out

Ubi apa kabar ya? 

Padahal sebelum puasa udah excited banget dan my head got ahead of me *as usual, mbayangin another safari ramadhan with her, I really couldn't wait :). Makannya pas doi ngabarin insya Allah bakal ngambil job di tangsel hayati couldn't tone down my excitement to find her a kosan room by ma bike. She was one of many sources of happiness pas jaman sekrp**an, ano ko wa daijin no hito desu. Back then, I actually been hesitated to come to majlis ilmu at first, but because she was the one who asked me first to go to maskam (and she was chatting me out of nowhere), everything gotten so much easier and clearer. I really didn't know where to start but alhamdulillah, she was like a gift that Allah sent to fixed me. 

Tapi qadarullah doi ngga jadi pindah dan ngambil jobnya :(. I really hope that she get a better job soon and anything the best for her, and I really hope to see her again someday. I was in jin mode *always been and probably will still be in near future. And as I never asking around, I didn't get any news about my friends including her. I don't want to pry over her life as my chat was left hanging, *and actually it was pretty normal for us. But Bara told me that she couldn't be reached out, and actually it's pretty concerning, because I also tried and it seemed like I couldn't reached her too. She might be in her caving mode again, but I really hope she is okay. I hope I can be any help to her, because she was the one who gave me her hand to got me out from my gloomy days.

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