(Dreamer)

Serius ini bingung banget mau ngetuk pintu yang mana lagi 🙃. Kok alm. Koh Steve bisa tegar banget dengan kejomplangan hidup setelah beriman ya, Allahumma yarham. Di titik terendahnya beliau masih bisa bilang bahwa dia siap kalo Allah mau turunkan ujian-ujian lain. Wallahi what a faith *malu orang mah bang 😣.  Sedih boleh, kecewa boleh, capek boleh, bingung pun boleh, asal jangan pernah menyalahkan takdir apalagi menyalahkan Allah. Tugas lu tuh ikhtiar dan tawakkal, kalo bingung, pegangan, kalo cape, istirahat, mau nangis dulu juga ngga ada yang ngelarang, tapi tolong jangan sampai tenggelam didalamnya. Minta sama Allah, bangun lagi, cari dan ketuk pintu-pintu lain lagi. I always want to find something that Allah put me there to be beneficial for other, a place that I can learn and maybe doin' dakwah with all I have insya Allah.

Baru kelar nonton drakor wkwk, skip season sebelumnya lanjut ikutin yg release taun ini ajalah hehe. Even tho our approach in pursuing relationship a whole world different, but I think people have some similar consideration.  Well that drama got me thinking about that last proposal I've got this year. If Yumi thought that it was about the timing, in my case I think timing isn't the first thing to think of, purpose is. Kak Tita said "masa kesemsem tuh paling bertahan berapa lama sih?", you definitely need a bigger purpose to start a bigest change in your life.  If it's just about sensation of butterfly on your tummy, I think it's easy, just lower your guard down a little bit, and I think you might fall in a trap. But this is about a long sailing journey with one person for the rest of your life. You gotta make sure you both have the same destination, conscious about each other role and responsibility, and also make sure you both ready for the upcoming storms an...