I'm ashamed of myself. Kek ditampar sama kenyataan yg jelas-jelas kelihatan mata, tapi entah se-ndableg apa, sampai kebo didepan mata ngga kelihatan. 

Qadarullah walhamdulillah, Allah mudahkan buat ke kajian lagi hari ini. Keknya sudah waktunya buat berkontemplasi dan ngobrak-ngabrik kebiasaan dll dll. Salah satu tafsir ayat yg ngena banget hari ini, "Allah memenuhi semua rizqimu dari dalam rahim sampai mayyit, bahkan Allah menyayangi dan memperlakukan mayyit dengan hormat dalam syariatnya, tapi kita, gua, sampai wafat pun ngga akan pernah bisa memenuhi ketentuan Allah." Dan dengan amal gua yg sedikit itupun tetep Allah terima :'.

Trus liat timeline isinya berita saudara-saudara di Gaza yg pingsan dijalan karena kelaparan, anak-anak kurang gizi dan berita yg lebih sedih yg lain :''. Ya Rabb, betapa kufurnya hayati :''.

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