(Dreamer)

I think, I'm just gonna do the journaling to make up my mind, because talking to a friend is not an easy thing as we get older. I don't really have a friend, if she's the one that intensely keep in touch with. Friends in my life are those who I met or contact when it is a time to do so. Pretty complicated but, low maintenance friendship is all we need as we getting old. I don't feel right to tell them my problems, and I don't think that it is easy to tell them what I feel, so I'm doing an easier work, that is to write them all.  If it's an update of me, it's me getting another allergic reaction. Well I have oversensitive immune system since I was a child. making it so hard to put socks and shoes. But teachers back then didn't want to understand, and we also couldn't pick up some of those scientific and medical reason, so in some season, I came home with itchy and hurting feet with socks sticking with infected skin and I had no idea how could I ma...

I'm surprised myself that I'm doing okay actually. No one ever knew what's going on with my life this year, except my family, but not whole fully understood what's going on, especially on my mind. I'm jumping from one heartbreak to another, and I'm perfectly fine *physically. Maybe 2 or 3 or more mental breakdowns, but I think I'm alright. I'm supposed not to expecting anything anymore, because I knew myself how it would turn into.  Another life lesson, do not expect anything, even it is from your hardwork, or from anyone, even from someone you trust the most, or someone that you met on the way. Maybe I should write it on my new year resolution: Less heartbreak, do the hardwork without any expectation, or maybe just less expectation.