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Sulit? Ujian?

Kalo mboncengin orang motoran jauh habis donor darah udah sering. Tapi pernah sekali,  ngide banget bawa ponakan 2 tahun donor darah ke blok M. Jauh amat ke blok M?, soalnya disana satu-satunya tempat yg dondarnya dipisah perempuan dan laki-lakinya *yg gua tau. Sebenernya tahun lalu pernah coba donor di masjid daerah Bintaro, tapi ternyata ngga ada dipisah -__- hish bete. Oiya waktu dondar bawa bocil, sebenernya pas berangkat alhamdulillah aman sentosa, tapi pulangnya doi tidur di setengah perjalanan pulang. Kadang I wonder, Allah ngasih cobaan kek gini tuh hikmahnya biar jadi wanita kuat kali ya?. Coba aja bayangin, tangan yg abis donor dipake buat bermanuver sendiri, trus tangan satu lagi dipake buat megangin bocil biar ngga jatuh. Tapi mungkin karena tahun itu cobaannya banyak dan keknya Allah sudah melapangkan ini hati, jadi malah excited, gils seru kali lah motoran macam ini. Tapi kalo dipikir-pikir lagi, itu tuh ngga ada seberapanya dibandingkan cobaan perempuan sholihah yg d...
I'm ashamed of myself. Kek ditampar sama kenyataan yg jelas-jelas kelihatan mata, tapi entah se-ndableg apa, sampai kebo didepan mata ngga kelihatan.  Qadarullah walhamdulillah, Allah mudahkan buat ke kajian lagi hari ini. Keknya sudah waktunya buat berkontemplasi dan ngobrak-ngabrik kebiasaan dll dll. Salah satu tafsir ayat yg ngena banget hari ini, "Allah memenuhi semua rizqimu dari dalam rahim sampai mayyit, bahkan Allah menyayangi dan memperlakukan mayyit dengan hormat dalam syariatnya, tapi kita, gua, sampai wafat pun ngga akan pernah bisa memenuhi ketentuan Allah." Dan dengan amal gua yg sedikit itupun tetep Allah terima :'. Trus liat timeline isinya berita saudara-saudara di Gaza yg pingsan dijalan karena kelaparan, anak-anak kurang gizi dan berita yg lebih sedih yg lain :''. Ya Rabb, betapa kufurnya hayati :''.

Apa itu planning

Please bear with me. Kalo iman lagi lowbat gini emang. Planning yg keberadaannya ada dan tiada, mungkin lebih tepatnya harapan daripada planning, semuanya gagal total.  Ngga ada satupun yg tercapai. It's already half year,  tapi usaha gua masih gini-gini aja (elunya juga si wah kaga ada sungguh-sungguhnya sekali). Jadi, waktu itu ada post ustadz anb atau siapa lupa lewat. Ustadz bilang kalo lelaki menyengaja untuk tidak menikah tu ngga boleh,  kecuali doi berjihad di bidang ilmu seperti ulama-ulama terdahulu yg juga memilih atau terlalu sibuk untuk menikah. Tapi wanita tuh beda,  kalo mau berkhidmat dengan ilmu,  atau mengabdi pada orangtua, atau emang situasinya tidak memungkinkan buat nikah, wanita tu boleh memilih untuk ngga nikah. That was where the Aha moment came (ooo kalo gitu, mungkin ini tanda gua kudu berkhidmat sama ortu kali ya). Dari situlah gua mulai optimis cari-cari gawean lagi,  sebenernya opsi yg lebih memungkinkan adalah buka usaha, ...

(Old) Friends

Dear friends that I lost on the way,  Maybe it's just about time, about who stays longer than the other. Or about time in our life, that we had one or multiple problem that constantly consuming our head, draining our energy and needed to be solved. And managing friendship becoming something that we can't afford anymore. I know I might just talking about myself, or perhaps you felt this too?!. It's a commonsense we knew that we don't hate each other. We just had our own life as we continue making steps on a path that we choose that might distancing us apart. From one path to the other. Getting to know to a stranger, becoming someone to each other life, loosing one by one people that used to be special, and becoming stranger again. I might missed you guys occasionally, but i won't bother you. I still thinking about the past sometimes, I kinda like my life back then, and I also love you guys because of Allah (hopefully I still and always do). but life's still goes...

Me being soft for a moment

The phrase "May you as well go home, as I did on my own" Lately playing in my head. That's actually a wrong lyrics, as I googling it out again. One thing that I'm not telling anyone is, actually I had another crush on someone, that I thought at that time I might finally end up with someone. But it end up as usual, he marrying someone else hehe. It always been that way, but Alhamdulillah bini'mati tatimushalihaats.  I'm easily fall for someone, I realize it after more than a decade having a crush with an elementary friend, than finally easily moved on with other crushes. But those crushes never been reachable, whether I can never have a conversation with him, or it's a character from a manga or dorama, or the distance (literally) between us was way too far, or I'm already understood that there're hijab between man and woman, so it's almost impossible to chit chat with that creature again and etc etc. But Alhamdulillah it's always been that w...

Let's start a project

I really want to cultivate mushroom :3. I'm thinking of making home scale production of button mushroom or Rhizopus sp. for tempeh starter, actually I'm also thinking about cultivating oyster mushroom, but there're already abundance amount of oyster mushroom in the store and traditional market, so I'm hesitating that species. But that's faar away ahead if I successfully start all those wacana and start home base research and hopefully successfully cultivate those store bought mushroom/tempeh. Maybe gonna start this project next month * hopefully not another procrastination, or another abandoned wacana. 
Kata ustadz Adi, kalau mau meningkatkan takwa, salah satu bentuk ikhtiarnya bikin tabel, mungkin semacam checklist 'amal yaumi kali ya?!. Pas banget si momennya, mumpung sedang menyongsong Ramadhan yang lebih baik, hayuk lah di realisasikan :3