(Dreamer)

Please bear with me. Kalo iman lagi lowbat gini emang. Planning yg keberadaannya ada dan tiada, mungkin lebih tepatnya harapan daripada planning, semuanya gagal total.  Ngga ada satupun yg tercapai. It's already half year,  tapi usaha gua masih gini-gini aja (elunya juga si wah kaga ada sungguh-sungguhnya sekali). Jadi, waktu itu ada post ustadz anb atau siapa lupa lewat. Ustadz bilang kalo lelaki menyengaja untuk tidak menikah tu ngga boleh,  kecuali doi berjihad di bidang ilmu seperti ulama-ulama terdahulu yg juga memilih atau terlalu sibuk untuk menikah. Tapi wanita tuh beda,  kalo mau berkhidmat dengan ilmu,  atau mengabdi pada orangtua, atau emang situasinya tidak memungkinkan buat nikah, wanita tu boleh memilih untuk ngga nikah. That was where the Aha moment came (ooo kalo gitu, mungkin ini tanda gua kudu berkhidmat sama ortu kali ya). Dari situlah gua mulai optimis cari-cari gawean lagi,  sebenernya opsi yg lebih memungkinkan adalah buka usaha, ...

Dear friends that I lost on the way,  Maybe it's just about time, about who stays longer than the other. Or about time in our life, that we had one or multiple problem that constantly consuming our head, draining our energy and needed to be solved. And managing friendship becoming something that we can't afford anymore. I know I might just talking about myself, or perhaps you felt this too?!. It's a commonsense we knew that we don't hate each other. We just had our own life as we continue making steps on a path that we choose that might distancing us apart. From one path to the other. Getting to know to a stranger, becoming someone to each other life, loosing one by one people that used to be special, and becoming stranger again. I might missed you guys occasionally, but i won't bother you. I still thinking about the past sometimes, I kinda like my life back then, and I also love you guys because of Allah (hopefully I still and always do). but life's still goes...